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07 June 2015 @ 05:27 am
*Updated 21 August 2010

Harry Potter, BBC Merlin, Miscellaneous

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20 November 2014 @ 01:06 pm
It's funny. Last night around 8pm, I opened up a new email window, typed in the proper code, gave this a non-witty, straight-forward title...

Then I left it open for three hours, watched nine episodes of Avengers Assemble, and went to bed without touching it again.

I procrastinate.

I have always procrastinated.

During high school this was mostly due to having zero levels of interest in what homework assignment I was given.

During college it was because I was too hung up in online RPG because, hi, yes, I do like instant reward and gratification, I am human, and also a hefty side-helping of depression and social anxiety. My freshman year I failed a basic beginner education course because I slept through it 10 times. This class was at three in the afternoon. College wrecked me. It made me question what I was doing, why I was doing it, and if I was on the right path. I finally got help when I transferred. I bit the bullet and went and saw the counselor and we talked about almost every topic that flew into my brain. And for a little while, I felt understood, I felt a little more in control, and I actively attempted to work on my problems.

At the very least, right now, I am a little more certain as to where my career path is heading then I was four years ago. I fell through music ed, elementary ed, secondary ed, and communication disorders. This August I discovered ABA therapy, and it is SUCH a relief to find myself here. Working 1:1 with two-seven year olds who are on the ASD spectrum is just amazing amounts of fun and it is utterly rewarding. It combines everything I sort of knew I wanted to do: teaching, full-engagement, 1:1 lessons, and helping children to communicate (something I still need help with myself).

But here I am again, back in college courses, graduate ones this time, courses that DIRECTLY pertain to my job right now, and I am procrastinating.


Worse, maybe, that I did when I was on a physical campus. Now all my classes are online. Now I live with my boyfriend and we're discussing adult things like buying a house and getting married. Now I am 26 years old and I am well acquainted with how messed up my brain can be.

Now my job hours peeled back to the point my stress level is rocketing, and I've gone on five separate job interviews in one week in hopes of finding something full time where this kind of thing can't be pulled on me as easily.

Yet, here is my problem. I have two weeks of course work left. It is now Thursday afternoon and everything is due on Sunday. I haven't even started my reading yet. I work eleven hours a week. Eleven. This leaves me with a whopping 100 hours unaccounted for when I'm not sleeping.

But I'm not doing anything else. My apartment looks like a dirty bomb exploded inside it. My boyfriend works 45 hours a week from 4am-1pm and falls asleep at 7. I don't blame him for coming home tired and he does do things on his days off like dishes, vacuuming and some laundry. On occasion I go through bursts of cleaning energy, and all of it happens because I have assignments due the next day or even THAT day, and I am finding literally any excuse to not do them, because I can't do them, because I haven't done the reading yet.

It's a circlejerk in my brain and no one is coming out a winner.

I read recently that simply listing all the problems that stem from procrastination can help start you on a path to no longer doing so, but I find that flawed when instead of doing homework, or writing for NaNoWriMo, I instead spent the last twenty minutes writing this post instead.

I guess I can say in all honesty I was writing SOMETHING.

But with that in mind, I'm going to give that list thing a try:

1. It stresses me the hell out.
2. The apartment starts to smell.
3. My grades suffer. Majorly.
4. I'm not happy.
5. Gregg isn't happy because my unhappiness confuses and worries him.
6. I become touchy and whiny and a big bowl of self-loathing.
7. I've become further addicted to my phone.
7a. This has actually started causing physical pain in my hand and wrist. As well as my neck and back.
7b. I may need to seek out a physical therapist for this because my neck muscles bunch so often I can't always properly turn my neck.
8. One of my professors? Might become my colleague if I get one of those jobs. I didn't realize this until a day ago. I don't want her to think I don't know what I'm doing because I DO. I just don't do the homework to prove it and she has never met me face to face.
9. This has been the worse semester grade wise I've had in years. And it's not because I'm out of practice at doing school work.
10. I'm sitting in the local library right now, writing this out, without any of my textbooks on hand because I had come here strictly to write my NaNo novel. I wrote 30 words.
11. I'm not sleeping well.
12. I can't invite anyone to the apartment because it is perpetually destroyed. And it's not Gregg whose making the biggest mess. All he does is leave his socks on the ground. If it weren't for them, you might not know there was a guy living in that apartment right now.
13. I keep reading self-help articles. They aren't helping.
14. I'm at a loss for how to get myself motivated to do the right thing without outside pressure. I don't know how to self-motivate at all.
15. I didn't really think about #14 until I just wrote it down. But now I'm lost for how to fix it.

I don't know if that list helped me. Or even if making this post will. But I can say I'm actively acknowledging there's a big problem, even if I have no idea how to solve it.

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01 January 2014 @ 09:36 pm

001. numinous 002. sillage 003. redamancy 004. koi no yokan 005. b'shert
006. dérive 007. finifugal 008. velleitie 009. balter 010. น้ำใจ
011. остранение 012. brumous 013. hiraeth 014. querencia 015. nepenthe

Pick a prompt from the table above and give me two characters (HP, Merlin, OUAT, Star Trek XI, Pacific Rim, MCU). Please specify if you'd like them written as a ship or platonic! I will then write you a fic based on the prompt.

001. numinous for enchanted_jae
003. redamancy for sassy_cissa
004. koi no yokan for majmunka

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01 January 2014 @ 06:07 pm
In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you have created. It can be your favorite fanworks that you've created, or fanworks you feel no one ever saw, or fanworks you say would define you as a creator.

I swear I wrote NOTHING this year fic wise. This seriously saddens me in a way I can't articulate properly right now. Just. So. So. Upset that I can't link to anything from the last two years.

1) An HP Snarry Fic Lost to Time:
One Lone Summer
Summary: In the summer of 1922, Harry packs his bags and runs to France where he finds more than simple inspiration.

2)Two Merlin Smut Fics of the Rare Pair Kind:
Such a Good Horse
Summary: Arthur/Elena. PWP. Sex on a Horse.

Like a Dying Fire
Summary: Arthur/Morgana. PWP. Morgana's tired of Arthur strutting around the castle boasting about his hunting skills, and sets out by herself to show him up.

3) And Third, a Fic That Made me Pine:
Alabama Morning
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06 December 2013 @ 01:47 pm

I promise I will make a real update this weekend, but right now I am SCRAMBLING to finish this assignment and I need willing victims to help me complete it.

I need 5 people who are willing to answer a small series of questions about their mouth and can initial a piece of white paper and then upload a scan/phone pic of your initials and send them to me through email or PM before 9pm EST tonight.

Here are the questions:

1. Can you pucker your lips?
2. Can you smile?
3. Can you close your lips and puff out your cheeks without losing air through your nose or mouth?
4. How many teeth do you have/have you lost as an adult?
5. Do you have an overbite or underbite?
6. Are any of your teeth crooked or malformed in any way? Which ones?
7. Can you draw the tip of your tongue back along the roof of your mouth?
8. Is your hard palate properly formed?
9. Have you had your adenoids/tonsils removed?
10. (Optional) timing yourself and not speeding: how long does it take to repeat the syllable "puh" 16 times "tuh" 16 times "kuh" 16 times "puh tuh" 12 times and "puh tuh kuh" 8 times.

Even if I only get one person to do this I would be SO grateful. I will owe you so big.

21 October 2013 @ 11:44 pm

If ever you need a video of two guys dancing El Tango de Roxanne HERE. JUST TAKE IT AND OMG.

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14 October 2013 @ 05:10 pm
I really love fall.

It saddens me that it's the shortest season by far.

i made a thing :D

6. Your 5 senses right now
Sight: Articulation disorders' notes
{this computer screen}

Smell: chicken noodle soup
Taste: rain berry gatorade
Touch: keyboard and wrist brace
Hear: Super Mario All Stars

So, who wants to guess who here is ill?

7. Your pet hates
People chewing in a quiet room. I cannot STAND IT. Especially if the food is noisy too. But it's just as bad with something soft and all you can hear is chewing. Mouths open or closed does NOT matter. I can't even eat without some kind of noise.

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12 October 2013 @ 10:52 pm

NaNoWriMo is less than a month away and I think I have finally settled on...Well, something. Seriously take a look:

3. Rather abruptly became MY MC IS DRIVING THIS SHIP and she says she'd much rather be:
4. an airship stealing, wwi nurse kidnapping, treasure hunting, flirtatious Nancy Drew.
5. Which presents a number of problems such as...
6. what the treasure is, why she really so badly wants it (other than 'TREASURE IS OH SO SHINY AND WONDERFUL', which is a legitimate reason I'll give you but incredibly unhelpful!), or why there's some kind of mystery surrounding it.

I could use some help. Any ideas?

31 Day of Posts Questions
4. What are you afraid of?
Dropping from extreme heights. This has been a fear I've been dealing with my whole life and I've never fallen from more than a tree (and that never stopped me from climbing it again). Ski lifts? Terrify me. TERRIFY ME. Standing on ledges? NOPE. Being in balcony seats at a play OH HELL NO. Theme park rides? NOPE NOPE NOPE. Except I've never once let this fear stop me from doing ANY of this. I go on ski lifts twice a year. Amusement parks, especially roller coasters and those dead drop rides? MY FAVORITES. I climb steep hills. But the whole time my head is buzzing and my stomach is rolling and I'm beginning to suspect I'm addicted to that feeling of terror.

5. 10 songs you love right now
1. Get Lucky - Daft Punk
2. Seven Devils - Florence and the Machine
3. Supersoaker - Kings of Leon
4. Wicked Game - Chris Isaak
5. I'm on Fire - Bat for Lashes
6. Crystalised - The XX
7. Shake - The Head and The Heart
8. Better Dig Two - The Band Perry
9. Devil's Backbone - The Civil Wars
10. Summertime Sadness - Lana Del Ray

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As a follow up to the wrist post? Went to the doctor. It's carpal tunnel.

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I very clearly enjoy pain.
10 October 2013 @ 02:59 pm
3. Your favorite quote
Would this be the appropriate place to say I don't have one? I've got favorite words. Things I say ALL THE TIME but quotes?

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09 October 2013 @ 08:50 pm

Anyone ever have carpal tunnel or tendonitis? Because I've been experiencing serious discomfort/pain in my hand/wrist/arm for a week or so now and I'm wondering when might be the time to go see a doctor.

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08 October 2013 @ 08:16 am

It may be a tiny bit too early in the AM for this much writing, but I have a lap full of warm kitty and enough coffee on the table before me to fuel a jet plane, so why not start this now?

This should carry me right into NaNo November.

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I need to update my icons.

12 September 2013 @ 10:54 am

Newt Scamander Film Spin Off.

THIS DELIGHTS THE PISS OUT OF ME. My little sister texted me the link with something like 20 misspellings in her excitement.

Now if only we could have that Aurors tv show there was a fake trailer for a few years back, my life would be complete. Hey if Marvel can make a SHIELD spin-off...

EDIT: I just got conned by a friend on Plurk into writing a Captain America/HP fusion set from the moment Steve meets Bucky (who is a wizard) AND IT IS ALL THIS MOVIE'S FAULT FOR BEING SET IN THE 1920s.



[I see no reason why I shouldn't bring this back into your lives two years later.]

Aside from the previous 'u' post, I haven't made a post on LJ since FEBRUARY. There was a point I couldn't go two days without a post about SOMETHING. Hi guys. I have the LJ app, so I HAVE been reading, just been very creepy about it all. Lurking in your posts. Reading about your lives. I'm feeling crazy nostalgic about LJ tonight, and maybe it's because I just finished up my summer semester, or maybe it's because I was hoping to find the music I had to wipe off my computer, but whatever it is, I've decided to revive the old place.

And if you suddenly get an influx of Pacific Rim, Star Trek and Avengers fics, I am not apologizing.

Anyone still here?

Current Mood: mischievousmischievous
25 June 2013 @ 09:40 pm


26 February 2013 @ 10:34 am
I have this super obnoxious chest cold, where I keep coughing, my throat feels raw, and I am super tired. Today I sound like a 70 year old chain smoker. It's ridiculously attractive.

I'm curing myself with ridiculous amounts of tea and honey and any hurt/comfort fic I can find (totally give me all your recs. I need an arsenal).

Normally I'd stay curled up in bed with my laptop, instead I'm out playing in the snow, chatting with snowmen.

It is ridiculously adorable what 2 year olds do.

I haven't posted to LJ in a long damn time. So hello. What has everyone been up to?
21 January 2013 @ 11:20 am
The producer of the show you loved finally admits in the effing commentary in the last episode of the show that the two characters you shipped were the center of the love story.

Thanks a billion, Julian.

That doesn't mean I like you or think you're a good person. Because this sure doesn't make you one.
20 January 2013 @ 10:34 pm
Brush Your Shoulders Off by anon | Matilda (1996)

Possibly the best post I can make to start the new year.

And because it's relevant, have a meta on Matilda and family and how more media needs to portray adopted families and leaving your birth family as a POSITIVE THING.

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31 December 2012 @ 11:40 am

2012 Reading Challenge

2012 Reading Challenge
Heather has read 19 books toward her goal of 100 books.

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Current Mood: determineddetermined
24 December 2012 @ 11:46 pm
I really don't even want to talk about that. What I do want to talk about is MERLIN SPOILERSCollapse )
21 December 2012 @ 03:41 pm
Cherish Thy Memory; Merlin, Tristan & Ygraine, G, canon character deathCollapse )

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04 December 2012 @ 01:35 pm
I am so, so behind already, but I feel like I need to do this after a month of radio silence on LJ. So gimmie some prompts. I will take writing, blogging, picspamming or bad ms paint requests.

Fandoms: HP, DW, Merlin, Once Upon a Time, MCU Avengers, GOT.

Also hi guys. Hi. Expect an apartment tour post soonish. ♥
23 November 2012 @ 11:39 pm
I AM OFFICIALLY MOVING TOMORROW MORNING. Like. All my things are in boxes and my mom has gone soggy on me, which is extra amusing as I'm really moving only 20 minutes away, BUT WHATEVER. MOVING. IT IS ON.

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Current Mood: ecstaticecstatic
07 November 2012 @ 08:42 pm
Is there anyone around who could beta a quick 1k Avengers fic? It's due tomorrow. (SEE HOW MUCH I FAIL GUYS? I STILL FAIL)

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31 October 2012 @ 09:21 am
Dear Emilia Grace,

Don't you raise that eyebrow at me, miss. A princess and a lady you may be, but you do have feelings, however illogical and distasteful you find them. Yes, I understand your emotions have done nothing but let you feel hurt but that's because you shut down after your brother's death. Shockingly people still love you. No stop. You're doing the eyebrow again. You are worth their love, yes, even when you don't believe in it, or trust yourself to know how to feel it. It's going to take a lot more than closing people out to make them stop and sweetheart that isn't even the worst of your problems right now.

You are about to disembark on a truly illogical quest for something you don't and can't believe in. You're going to get bruised and bullied, talked down to and spat upon. It won't be fun or easy and you could very well die. But believe me the payoff will be well worth the pain even if you can't see that yet.

I love you Emilia Grace of Gainslow Province. You're ridiculous and way too much like a Vulcan for your own good (seven years ago you even had pointed ears and were a touch empath) but that doesn't mean I'm not stupidly excited to get to know you all over again in 10.5 hours. You'll thank me when I don't stick you in the ceiling to watch your mother be poisoned like I did the first time.

30 October 2012 @ 07:45 am
This girl. I will say I feel exceptionally lucky even then. We were far enough north of the storm that all we got was strong winds and some heavy rain. Our entire town has no power but considering it's already 60 degrees, it isn't too big a deal.

Also the family I work for does have power and internet so in fairness, I'm not exactly lacking.
28 October 2012 @ 07:12 pm
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28 October 2012 @ 05:25 pm
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28 October 2012 @ 10:42 am
I have been very, very quiet these last few weeks, which is a shame because I've been very squeeful about many things and normally this is where I share them. I was taking an LNA (CNA for, like, everyone else) course for the last two months and it ate up SO MUCH of my free time and energy it's really unbelievable. BUT IT IS DONE.


Now all I have to do is survive a hurricane, turn in my licensure application, and prep my body for NaNoWriMo. Yeah. We shall see how this goes.

Other Things:

☂ Gregg and I are moving in together. HOLY FUCK. We're moving somewhere in MA. We've been waiting for both of us to have actual free time that synced up so we can go explore different apartments, but legit, this will be happening, probably within the month

☂ Having my writing mojo back is pretty much the BEST FEELING. I sat down last night and popped out 1000 words and it was LOVELY.

☂ I want to be a speech therapist. I think I've found something that feels like a truly good fit for me, and it took me having to learn how to care for the elderly to find it. I'm going to be taking prerequisite courses slowly over the next year because the programs only start in the fall, but still. PROGRESS.

☂ No, but seriously, hurricane. WTF.
12 October 2012 @ 11:14 pm

[Source Unknown :|]

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27 September 2012 @ 05:30 pm
I freaking love that fic. Seriously. I read it twice a year and it never loses its shine.

Now I just want all the random circus!au fics. Someone point me toward more. (I truly have no fandom preference here. Though now I want Teen Wolf circus!au where Allison is a trick shot. Stiles is the stage manager. Jackson tames lions. Lydia does silk acrobatics. Scott is a strong man and the Hales own it.)
23 September 2012 @ 02:09 pm
Since this isn't really a spoiler, I'm not going to cut it, but has anyone else thought that Brian Williams is almost too uncannily like Rory? As in, he might actually BE Rory?

Cause I'm starting to wonder...

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20 September 2012 @ 08:38 pm
HAY EVERYONE. I finished S1. Feel free to discuss with me. Cause frankly I'm a little in love with Scott/Allison WHAT IN THE WHAT. This show gives me all kinds of feelings and none of them seem to be uh, the majority of fandom? AM I DOING THIS SHOW WRONG?

The music selections crack my shit up. The soundtrack to the show is like the soundtrack to bad high school poetry. Vaguely fitting, but makes me giggle at inappropriate times.


EDIT: Just started ep1s2 and LOL THE INTRO CREDITS.
17 September 2012 @ 08:44 am




I swear autumn is my absolute favourite season but it is just so busy all the time.


major lurking happening for me right now. if I missed something awesome (or important) that you think I didn't see please link me. i already am guilty of not commenting enough.


my lna course started last friday and it is full of characters (also learning how to find a mini penis so you can clean it without cracking our shit up.)


bonus weirdness is realizing in two weeks I will have been a nanny for a year.  currently playing hide and seek.


wish i could say i am feeling the pain of merlins demise with everyone else but i barely watched last season :/ not that i won't watch the upcoming one just...time skips. again. do the producers not know how to write a continuous story or ...


at least this should lead to plenty of first year with Arthur as king fic.


also fuuuu hockey. my boy and my dad are grousing big time about the lockout. understandably. im just content that i can troll tumblr for hockey boy shenanigans. why are so many of them so pretty?


and i let my paid account on lj lapse. my icons! i don't know how lj arbitrarily decides which I keep but none of the ones I use were.

08 September 2012 @ 12:03 pm
Going home in my mother's car after dropping mine off for an oil change and the car super overheated. Steam, green spew, the works.

Not the way I intended to spend Saturday.
03 September 2012 @ 10:31 am
I think I'm buying a mac. I'm not sure why I feel I need validation for this choice.
02 September 2012 @ 05:31 pm
I am so over this laptop and since I'm not going to need one for practical purposes, I want a desktop this time. Only problem? I've never had to look up desktops and I don't even know where to begin.

Anyone own one they'd recommend?
29 August 2012 @ 08:28 pm
3 Random Text Conversations with Gregg:
Me: If I said I was thinking about how Jesus was the first well-documented case of zombieism, would you love me less?
Him: His corpse did reanimate.
Me: On second thought, he might have been a vampire. He could talk once back from the dead. Zombies only talk about brains.
Me: ...and no I am not high.
Him: I was wondering why you were thinking about it.
Me: I blame the internet.

Him: Soon you can get rid of the galaxy.
Me: XD but I like our galaxy and I don't have a destroyer ship big enough to blow it all up.
Me: I also don't have a motive or a master plan.
Me: I at least need one.
Him: You are such a nerd, my dear.

Me: I just made embarrassing dolphin noises. Really high pitched ones.
Him: Why did you do that?
Me: Pumpkin. In my coffee.
Him: I don't think that explains the dolphin noises.
Me: I was very excited.
Him: So you made flipper noises.
Me: No. I went eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Him: Interesting.

As I told grapecase earlier. 'Clearly I shall have no other love like this.' 'I suppose this means I better put a ring on it.'

Writing: It's been happening. This isn't something I should feel so proud of. I only wrote maybe 300 words. BUT IT WAS 300 WORDS OF AWESOME.

Watching: Teen Wolf s1 is almost done being watched. I only have four episodes left. and then I must find a way to illegally obtain s2 since streaming on my computer is laughable.

I've also been watching all the On Demand episodes of Honey Boo Boo and Toddlers and Tiaras. I DON'T JUDGE YOU SO DON'T JUDGE ME. It's my detox during lunch.

Reading: Got two new books from the library on Monday and finished one of them today. Let's Pretend This Never Happened: A (Mostly) True Memoir. I HIGHLY suggest reading it. It's humorous and sad and thoughtful, but mostly funny and a really fast-paced read. I admit there were moments where I stopped and went, wait, what? That probably happens to other people in other countries, or even in other parts of OUR country, but you know what, it is the authors experience in growing up dirt poor in rural Texas with a dad who is a taxidermist who makes squirrel box puppets and her serious anxiety issues that came from it. So let's just say it's worth it for those moments of OMGWTF and not so much for it's social commentary.

Phone: I may just light it on fire and throw it against a wall. Seriously. This might actually happen. I cannot stress how much I need a phone that functions, you know, AS A PHONE.
25 August 2012 @ 04:10 pm
I got my [profile] avengersfest assignment.

My initial reaction: Yes. Good. This is good.

Cause I needed a real reason to go put that DVD in. It's not like I can't quote most of it.

Related I re-watched Iron Man 2 last night. Sort of pissed I didn't watch it before going to see the Avengers. Seriously. Everything in the Avengers has ties to that film. That was like the tie that BINDS of the films.

Supernanny watching Phil is canon. I don't know why I assumed that was a fandom inspired creation. Maybe because fandom is crafty like that.

MORE RELATED. Kat Dennings is officially back for Thor 2. WHICH JUST MAKES ME LIFE.

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21 August 2012 @ 08:24 am
Avengers Gag Reel


I need this DVD in my life already.
20 August 2012 @ 06:55 am
Teen Wolf! I watched episodes 1-5 last night, well, 2-5 as I had watched episode one like a month ago and Spoilers for Teen Wolf S1E1-5Collapse )

Weight Loss! I've officially lost my first 5lbs which means I've lost more like 10lbs since I actively started dieting back in June and while THIS IS SLOW, I haven't gained any back and I'm moving forward at a healthy pace while doing some light exercising. I feel really damn good about this. I mean, I can now fit into my younger sister's clothes which says SO MUCH to me right now in terms of feeling better about my body as she has like zero body issues, at least when it comes to looks.

Baby! Dude, guys, I am surrounded by 6 babies of various ages no matter what I am doing. THIS DOES NOT HELP WITH THE NESTING/BABY WANTING THING I HAVE GOING ON HERE. Logically, I know I am not ready to have my own, not monetarily, but guys. SIX LITTLE ONES. One newborn, two infants, three toddlers. WTF. ITS ALL THE CUTE AGES.

Also Chloe has begun to talk, which makes work epically funny, especially since she's contradicting herself. 'No, no, no, no, okay!, no, no, no...'

Avengers! Still reading all the fic, just signed up for avengersfest this will be...entertaining I'm sure.
14 August 2012 @ 07:39 pm

You know there's a problem when you sign-up for something and you haven't even finished the source material.


BUT LADIES. 15k of LADIES ALL THE TIME DOING THINGS. PREFERABLY TOGETHER. This fic is going to be so very gen and attract no readers at all, AND I FIND IT HARD TO CARE.

I need an icon.
12 August 2012 @ 10:28 pm
God damn, UK. You guys just said FUCK EVERYTHING! PARTY ALL NIGHT!

My inner twelve year old fangirl is still flailing like loser in the back of my head and probably will not be satisfied until I take time to watch every Spice Girls music video my greedy little brain can remember.

And then a fantastic rewatch of Spice World. Because apparently I cannot go a full year anymore without watching it. I just cannot.

So thank you, UK. I salute you and your balls out choices for this years entertainment. You did, if possible, FAR TOO WELL.

But screw you, NBC. You managed to actually STFU for most of the closing ceremony, which honest to God shocked me with your restraint, and then bleeped out Eric Idle anyway. Whatever. I'm crossing my fingers for a different station to be airing the Winter Olympics. One who saw the mistakes NBC made and thinks 'yes, we can do SO MUCH BETTER, and maybe not piss everyone in the USA off.'
Current Mood: pleasedpleased
10 August 2012 @ 07:20 pm


There may be an issue with my capslock, however, I seem to be using it way too much. Overuse of capslock in your LJ. That can be a thing. It's a thing I'm doing.

It's a sign of too much time spent on tumblr. Like a bad addiction, it needs to end.

Yet it brings the pretty like nothing else I have ever known. ♥_♥
09 August 2012 @ 08:12 pm
09 August 2012 @ 08:58 am
Recently I've become aware I have three weaknesses (only two of which are negatively impacting my current weight loss goals.)

1) CEREAL. ALL THE CEREAL. Beautiful. Beautiful cereal.
2) ICE CREAM. Any flavor. Any topping. Ugh just.
3) Colton Haynes and a baby.

3a.) Frankly, any boy with a baby. There is legit swooning and derpy faces when I see my boyfriend hold his nephew. I HAVE A THING FOR THIS. OKAY?

I will take gratuitous picspam of boys and babies in the comments. Yes, ma'am, I will.

5 Ways You Don't Realize Movies are Controlling Your Brain


It's all about how movies and tv shows shape your perception of reality and why what we're shown and how is so damn important.


Frankly, since it's a Cracked article I'm shocked there wasn't one part that made me want to punch the author in the mouth.


Relevance and no face-punching. Astounding.

Yikes. Every time I think about making a new post about a dozen other things become altogether too irresistible and kill my focus. Excuses? Yes, I make them.

Summer is already winding down which is, in fact, FREAKING CRAZY. I mean what? Where'd it go? Not that I'm complaining, especially not today (hello 93 and humid you are not my good friend), I love autumn, LOVE IT, but autumn is way, way too short. We had a massive snow storm at the end of October last year. Days without power and freezing cold. It was really unpleasant and unappreciated. I love fall when it meanders, when the leaves get the chance to actually change color and fall, when the weather chills slowly until one morning you wake up and bam, frost on the yard. Pumpkin flavored coffees and apple cider are THINGS I CRAVE. I get excited for it. I anticipate it.

I hate it because winter is the season that follows. Bleh. Winter. If I had any active interest in winter sports, I might want it as much as my dad does. I could live without it. Let's be real here.

(The title of this post is in reference to my little peanut who has suddenly decided the only foods she likes start with the letter P. SHE CAN'T EVEN SAY LETTER P. But seriously, Pistachios, Popsicles and Peanut Butter are her five food groups.)

The last few weeks have been mildly surreal for me. My mother and grandfather went out to Oregon for his 66th High School reunion, which I can only hope I get to see as well, longevity, I want it, but that meant two weeks alone with my dad and the pets. And the pets, oh freaking lord, the pets got super whiny and needy because there weren't four pairs of hands to love on them all.

I didn't kill the gecko. I think I'll count that survival as a win.

Right before the left though, I went and signed up for Weight Watchers under my own name so I could start attending meetings. I didn't even realize how much I needed those meetings. Just knowing you need to go weigh in and join a bunch of like-minded people has helped so much in remaining consistent in what I need to do in order to lose weight.

So I am stating here for the record: On August 1, 2012, I weighed 176lbs with a weight loss goal of reaching 155lbs. That's only 20lbs. I can do that. In fact, I already sort of have. I weighed upwards of 190lbs at this point last summer, the most I have ever weighed in my life. I felt gross, lethargic and sort of miserable at that point, and a lot of it had to do with job upheaval, and trust me, I'm so damn happy Gregg stuck around through that phase, I barely wanted to see him, even when I desperately wanted to. (Now we might be moving in together HOLY SHITBALLS. Guys. I might be becoming an adult o.o) So Weight Watchers. It's a thing I'm doing.

But I've also done a few other life altering activities just in the last two days.

Thing One I Did: Go to the bank, fix my checking account and start up a monthly transfer of $20 into my savings account. I'm not 100% sure where all the savings is going to end up, but I know it's a good idea to do, especially when interest comes into play. Maybe a trip. Or rent payments. Who knows. It's going to go to something eventually and I'll have it and feel smug.

Thing Two I Did: I signed up for an LNA course that starts in September. It runs until the end of October with full certification and everything. The best part is NH will reimburse me for the course since we have such a shortage here. There's basically no losing in this process, and it will give me an extra cash flow which I desperately need. Well, maybe not desperately, but it's become hard to save money when it all goes to loans at the end of the month. I've basically been hovering under $1000 every month thanks to them. Yay, loans. :| I could live without those too.

Thing Three I Did: A two-year plan has been hatched. Once I finish up the LNA course, and hopefully find part time work with it, I plan to save up so next fall I can go back to school to get my Master of Education in Elementary Ed. w/certification. I AM DAMN WELL GOING TO GET MY ASS CERTIFIED IN TEACHING. I SPENT WAY TOO MUCH TIME TRYING FOR IT TO GIVE UP NOW.

And if I don't find a teaching job after that, I still have LNA work. SO THERE.

Adult like things.

Before Picture | Greek Yogurt Pop: Blueberry

Next Post: Books I have read. Foods I have made. And the reason why I have been reading all the fic, but not actually talking about them here. The answer is laziness.

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